Flagstaff...fare thee well

Four years have come to pass. And sooner than I would like I willing be leaving the place in which I have grown to love immensely, Flagstaff. It seems almost like yesterday I was an eager, naive, and awkward 18 year old ready to take on the world of college. From the moment I arrived this place just felt right. The perfect fit. The memories and friends I will be holding on to are more than I could have ever imagined. It is here that I have grown into the confident and life embracing woman I am now. I do not know what my life would be like had I not gone to school here but I do know it would have been a hell of a lot lamer. Today is the 23rd of April and I leave on 14th of May. Less then a month left of this life changing place. Although, it saddens my greatly that I will be bidding this glorious place farewell I know that I can thrive anywhere I go. Flagstaff will be forever a reminder of just how wonderful life can be. So when times get rough I'll just think of a memory I had in Flagstaff and know I can have that again. It is all about the attitude you have going to into it. Instead, of wallowing in my sorrows of leaving Flagstaff. I will thank Flagstaff. Thank you for showing me how to live more fully.

waiting..waiting..waiting...

I have been feeling anxious lately. So, what's new? Nothing. I know. Yet, there is something stirring inside of me. Yet, I cannot place what exactly it is that is stirring. Perhaps, it could be because I am leaving Flagstaff in one month and after that, a new strangely familiar world will unfold. I have the summer planned. I am working at camp until August and then to Ecuador for a month. When I come back I have to begin an internship, somewhere, somehow. But I don't know where yet. But I know it's going to be somewhere new, somewhere I don't know anyone. Making friends in college is easy but what about when I am alone in a new place. Part of me just wants to say fuck it and stay in Flagstaff. However, that's the easy way. I am not even going to apply for an internship here. I know if I do, I will stay in Flagstaff and find myself stuck in the mud unable to move about freely and explore the world around me. So instead of sinking further into the mud, I am going to wriggle my legs free now. Even as frightening as it may seem, I know it will be the best option. One can only grow and learn from change.